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VIOLETA GARCIA-MENDOZA
Call it the end of the world, come alive—
by which I mean how the past
keeps dissolving…its counterfacts infinite
possible rooms. I am indoors, sitting at the piano,
hands branching a chord I have not yet
played. These are the slow blinks, seconds
before the song begins, when I listen & think and if?
In every multiverse, do we linger
like this? You are upstairs, still sleeping
& outside the world is that charged kind
of quiet—incense, smoke, sigh— barely
solid & I am still silent, staring off.
Blame the fog. In another life, I might
have been the veil scraping against
the corners of a sooted city or the slice
of lamplight or the galloping black.
Or is it all pentimento? Painting over painting
over painting, repenting. Even now
I might play anything, press my bare foot
to the pedal’s brass, let sostenuto
palimpsest every note together, at once.
These seconds are the kind of painting
you can only perceive bleary, wheat fields blurred
by high-speed, distance. The landscape gone
gold, the way you used to picture it: egg yolk,
amber, honeycomb… that is, once-you, the figment
thick with wistfulness. Maybe motion
is a kind of wisdom—wind-swept
where the spirit splits its cage of bones;
even now, a charm of sunlit finches
lifting. Forgive me, hopelessness
is a room I’ve had to bless & burn.
Violeta Garcia-Mendoza is a Spanish-American poet, writer, and photographer. She is a member of Carlow University’s Madwomen in the Attic Writing Workshops. Her poetry has been nominated for a Pushcart Prize and for Best of the Net, and has won a Sustainable Arts Foundation grant. Violeta lives with her family in western Pennsylvania.