SARAH BEDDOW

Dispatch
re: my Teeth

 

There is a black spot  between / my molars on the bottom right-hand side  Investigating that black spot I saw  another small spot on the side of my molar  where   the enamel is gone / gone and left behind is a perfectly / circular  sensitive spot   so I don't touch it / or think about it / I think about it all the time   is this where my son   / got his nutrients / while nursing  / while I ate so very little food   / because he was allergic to everything / but probably he wasn't  That was just what the nutritionist guessed  /  I didn't eat/  dairy wheat soy egg chocolate sugar gluten booze Ha / I kid / I still drank  I tell my students  this / That a mother's body is so dedicated to her baby she will cannibalize herself  She could be near starving and her teeth will fall to pieces  but the baby will have strong / bones

Sarah Beddow is a poet, mother, and teacher. She has written a lot of poems and essays about her body, rape culture, and abortion. Her chapbook, "What's pink & shiny/what's dark & hard" was published by Porkbelly Press, and she is the founding editor of the Pittsburgh Poetry Houses, a public art project. Find her online at impolitelines.com.