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ASHLEY MARES
There are flowers in my skull and soil
underneath my tongue. Many things
dwell inside my bones: Hebrews believed demons
brought madness—but when young
girls placed dull knives to their
flesh, no spirits escaped—No,
nothing can hide in the
body: because my body is the moon
grabbing hold of light. I did not know
my bones needed shaping. No—I never
wanted to hold stars in my hand:
feel the sharp point
against my palm—prick
my finger against the sins of my mother.
And yet—I still fall
into the ocean every night: still
blur at the edges at dusk
when I kneel next to the bed
to pray: with my back pressed against
the moon. Still trace
the scars on my thighs: because
there’s a before I can’t remember.
God is never pushed
from my bones: but what happens
when the mind turns against
the body, says I want to feel more—
when bones can’t borrow
beauty from old sin and
the knife is resting
on the ocean floor—or the night sky, or in
the other room. Sometimes
I can’t tell the difference between
living things and the
sound of wind through leaves
but I can hear my own
breathing under water.
Ashley Mares is the author of two forthcoming chapbooks, A Dark, Breathing Heart (dancing girl press) and The Deer Longs for Streams of Water (Flutter Press). Her poetry has appeared or is forthcoming in Whiskey Island, Menacing Hedge, Whale Road Review, Prelude, Hermeneutic Chaos, and others. She is currently completing her J.D. in Monterey, Ca, where she lives with her husband. Read more of her poetry at ashleymarespoetry.wordpress.com and follow her @ash_mares2.